Killian Harding (2004

When I Lived with You

I found love in your womb, I was happy and warm
I heard your voice, I heard you sing
I heard your heart beating for me, and I loved you!
I kicked and squirmed and sucked my thumb, I had hiccups and they made you laugh.
I knew all the plans you had for me, and I loved you!
When I lived with you, I grew and grew into a beautiful, healthy baby.
I waited to see you, you named me Killian!
I heard you calling my name, and I loved you!
Mommy, God loved me too, he said I was perfect and pure.
Together with Daddy and you, God created me and asked me to come home.
I can be your light, your hope, your strength, I will always love you!
Thank you, Mommy, for my life.
Love Killian.

This site is dedicated to my Killian, who went to Heaven in 2004,my Mom, who went to heaven, on August 20, 2006, my darling Baby H, who joined Killian & Mom on July 10, 2007 and my beloved cat Kiki, that I enjoyed for 15 years, who joined them on October 1st, 2007. the losses are many, the burdens are heavy, I carry them with me daily, as God carries me in his arms. One day, I will join them all, and will live for eternity with the loves of my life. Thank you all for your amazing continued support,
Luv Keena, Pats daughter,Killian & Baby H's Mommy

This website was created in loving memory of my son, Killian Drake, who was born still on September 19, 2004. He was/is the love of my life. My future seemed set & full of promises, then in one day my entire life was forever changed by the Best & Worst moments of life. From my warm, loving womb, my Killian was given to me, all 9 pounds of him, beautiful & so very perfect, but with no life in him. I remember thinking, he's gonna cry, but that moment never happened, at least not in this life. I will dedicate my life to bringing meaning from his life and from his death. The meaning of my sons name, "Killian", is "to fight". He did just that! He had been telling his mommy in the womb that it was past time to be born, but with all my pleading, the cries of a mother were ignored. The doctors played russian roulette with my precious sons life, ultimately causing him to die, my miracle that I had prayed for, for 20 years, gone from his mommy, until we meet again. (It is mommys desire Killian to follow God's word so that I can get to Heaven to hold you again, for eternity. I love you sweet boy!)
Thank you so very much to everyone who visits my Killian's site, fondly known as my chunky butt, those visits are special to me and carry me through my days. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Keena,Killians mommy
you can also visit me and my friends at:
www.stillborn-angels.memory-of.com

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the Scripture says: / Nancy McCarty (Nick and Killian rock )

"So, flesh and blood cannot inherit the Kingdom of God! Where,O
death, is your victory? Where, O death,is your sting?"

We MOURN for our babies. Sadness and suffering wind through our pages of love and tears. But there is a greater love story here! The reader comes away with a solid resonating hope and a profound sense of peace in the midst of a mother's greatest loss.......

Keep the faith!! for Killian,for Nick, for Baby Harding.and all of us
who have lost children. C ontinue as the beautiful raven-haired
woman and beacon that you are!! LOVE YOU MUCH
(Thank you for your hope Nancy)

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It is with great sadness, that today July 10, 2007, I discovered at 11 weeks gestation, Killians sibling, "Baby Harding's", soul has gone to Heaven.thank you all for your loving support, Keena

wow Tammy K, stunning, Thank you!

"The Busiest Day In Heaven"

It's the busiest day in Heaven
I'm planning a big surprise
To let you know I love you
And that no one ever dies

Even though your down below
And I am up above
I'm sending you my wishes
And all my angel love

It's really quite exciting
To plan this big event
For lots of gifts will come your way
And all are Heaven sent

First I'll take a bubble bath-
My splashes might cause some rain
But knowing all the fun I'm having
Will help to ease your pain

Next I'll get some pictures
In my halo and gown
So when you get to Heaven
You can show me all around

I have color crayons in Heaven
And I will draw some stars so bright
And place them in the sky today
For you to see tonight

Then Jesus will have story time
And I will sit upon his lap
He'll tell me all about you
Just before I nap

I'll awake full of energy
And play a game or two
Before I finish sending
All my love to you

After snack I'll write a song
For all the birds to sing
And know I've made you happy
With all the joy it brings

At night time I'll be tired
But I'll still hold you tight
My arms will wrap around you
And keep you through the night

And when you finally slumber
I will kneel and pray
Asking God to bless you
On this special Mothers Day

Love,
Your Angel

"A Baby asked God"

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I am going to live there being so small and helpless?"
God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."
The child furthers inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."
God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."
Again the child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"
God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak." "And what am I going to do when
I want to talk to you?"
God said, "Your angel will place your hands
together and will teach you how to pray."
"Who will protect me?"
God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life."
"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."
God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you." At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from
Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

"You will simply call her, "Mom."

this is my Killians friend Benny, waiting together in Heaven for us!

This is so special Margaret, Thank you!
(In loving memory of my Killian & my Mom)

MY BEAUTIFUL HANDSOME BOY

WOW, SO BEAUTIFUL

PLEASE DO NOT COPY MY SON'S GRAPHICS, THEY WERE GIVEN TO HIM
BY VERY SPECIAL FRIENDS, IN HIS MEMORY!

Im speechless Dianne, Thank you, lovely!

Killian, Baby Angel

They say the Lord works in mysterious ways
But why did He have to take you.
I felt my life stopped that day
The day my heart broke in two.

I know I have to accept my fate
That my son is now in God's hand.
My only wish is that someday
I can accept and understand.

You're Heaven's littlest angel now
A sweet and wonderful boy
And when we meet at Heaven's gate
My heart will be mended with joy.
Beautifully written for my Killian by Dianne

http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/Killian.html

thank you Cindy for loving my Killian!

Little Angels

When God calls little children
to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometime question
the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world,
seem wonderful and mild
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to his fold,
So He picks a rosebud,
before it can grow old.

God knows how much we need them,
and so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven more
beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult still
somehow we must try,
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be "Goodbye."
So when a little child departs,
we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children,
Angels are hard to find.
Author Unknown

Margaret, Im speechless, my heart is touched, Thank you!
www.nellie-buonpane.memory-of.com

From One Mother to Another

The day of the birth of your son is near
A day that is filled with joy.
The gift you gave the world that day
A smiling baby boy.

The miracle of birth occurs
A thousand times each day.
And each and every mother
Prays her child will be okay.

As a mother you felt the pain
Of loosing your only son.
But as His mother you must be proud
Of everything He's done.

As mother's who have lost a child
We can share each other's pain.
And As Blessed Mary knows
We shall see our child again.
beautifully written by Dianne:

http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/Killian.html

,
July 2006 Balloon release, Beautiful

Oh Cindy, this is gorgeous, Thank you so much!
www.kaydeeboo-memory-of.com

It's hard for us to fathom.
No one truly understands
that this child that has been taken,
is now held tenderly in God's hands.
Cared for and nurtured by the Father,
he will grow and mature in His love,
while angels guide and keep him in
his Heavenly home up above.

They will tell him he is special
and that you love him, even more-so today
as they spend countless hours preparing
for your reunion One Grand Day!
They will take him to the edges of Heaven
and let him look often down below
to see the loved ones left down here
that he didn't get time to know.

So as you gaze up into the sky,
know he's now in a Glorious place,
and maybe he's looking back at you ~
searching for a smile upon your face.
For I'm certain that in his little heart
it grieves him to see you cry,
and if he could he would tell you:
"Mommy It's See you later! ~ not goodbye!"
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers...
xoxo
Crystal
Baby Girl to Earl
www.earl-danz.memory-of.com

"faith does not always come from quiet contemplation or meditation. It is sometimes born among the raging of questions with no answers,pain with no relief, hope that has no reason to exist".
by Randy Becton

SOOOO BEAUTIFUL!! thank you Cindy

Killians only birth certificate, made by Cindy
special thanks to her xoxo

ta da.....Mommys Chunky Butt!!!

Our Angels, Our Babies
You have been where I have been
We have walked a similar path.
The road has not been easy.
We have felt the sorrow of valleys so deep,
and the satisfaction of conquering the highest mountain.
We have stood broken and battered from our pain,
but we continue to go on and survive.
There will be new mommies and daddies who will join us,
they too will have to walk this journey called grief.
We will support and comfort them,
Laugh and cry with them.
They to will conquer the mountain and survive.
We have a bond that others who haven't felt this pain,
would or could understand.
We are Mommies and Daddies brought together by Angels.
Our Angels, Our Babies.
Babies who have taught us about love,
and have shown us our heart.
We will never be the same again,
who could be.
To experience the death of a child,
and not change.
That would mean we are unloving and unfeeling,
I know that we are more of both.

Tribute to Keena and Killian / Johnny Ramey (Great Uncle )
We are harnessed with time still, and the days go by some slow and others almost before we know it. Some day soon we will be in the timeless place where we can sit and talk to the Lord and Killian without ever worrying about how much time we have left in the day. But for now we mark these days as they go by and ever look forward to seeing Killian and all our loved ones who have passed us by in the race of life. And just like theirs, our finish line will be crowded with onlookers and applauders who have awaited our crossing. The refreshment of Eternal life and the a Crown of Victory awaits us as they offer words of encouragement, "Come on! You can make it! just keep putting one foot in front of the other and before you know it you'll be here.
Love ya,
Uncle Johnny

Greatest honor / Johnny Ramey (Great Uncle )
I have been bestowed with several great honors in my life but none reaches the pennacle of being able to sing for Keena and Killian in September and be there when his red balloon out paced all others in their flight towards the heavens. That sight is imprinted in my thoughts for a lifetime. Keena you were blessed to nurture him for 9 months and blessed to birth him and we were blessed by his ever so short presence here with us. But the next time we see him there will be no parting!
Blessings to my treasured neice.
Uncle Johnny

Created for Special Purposes / Erinn Ragan (mommy to angel Moses )
Killian is a Child of God.... taken home not prematurely.... but just in time. His Father was calling his name, and he took the walk that we will all take someday. The plans of the Lord are infinite, perfect, and complete, even though we may not understand them. This child was "made for a purpose" to live in HIS presence forever. We all await Heaven in patience to see him again... where time and pain are not factors... and joy and peace are everlasting words.

Thinking of you today Killian and your Mommy. She is such an amazing woman of strength and faith. We can't wait until we can see you again and my Moses.
Hugs to you - Grace and peace to Mommy.
thank you Erinn
www.moses-mackay-ragan.memory-of.com

How the Heavens shine! / Lauren Meeuwsen

What a beautiful, amazing little boy! So angelic in all his pictures! How the heavens must shine in his presense! May you always feel the tender love from your little, Killian, each day as he smiles down on you! God Bless you and wrap his loving arms around you! Your website is wonderful and truly touching! You and Killian have touched my heart foreve
thank you so much! Keena

Killian, a sweet, precious baby boy
Immersed with love that continues to grow
Life on earth for him, he'd never know
Living in Heaven now, Under God's gracious care
Impatience from Mommy wanting to be there
An Angel who has blessed heart after heart
Never forgotten Killian-You were loved from the start

Sweet baby,Killian / Nancy McCarty

Killian,
What a strong, beautiful name you have!
The angels probably have to take turns holding you on their lap!
One day you'll sit on mommy's lap and you'll both be so happy. Until those
days come, we'll enjoy your cozy corner with its gay toys and animals. Most
of all,there you are with the Savior.

You are a much-loved little boy with so many visitors ! It seems the world
loves Killian and all of Heaven too!

Maybe you get to be with another fellow with a big,strong name....................
Simeon. He has been gone from this place where your "Cozy Corner" is,
for one year today. Only we mommies think of things like that; there is no
night in your home. From everything I read Killian, it is such a grand place
that you or Simeon would not want to come back!
You are so innocent and sin and sorrow never stained you. You didn't
have to hang you head or worry one tiny bit upon meeting Jesus. A perfect
little man!

May we all in the world who want eternal salvation look to you for our
inspiration.

Blessings to you,Keena

Thank you so much Nancy
www.simeon-mccarty.memory-of.com

My Beautiful Child
You are my angel from the heavens
My dream for the all world to see
My precious gift in all its glory
Because you're everything to me.

Smiling tears of joy and laughter
There is a magic in your eyes
Like the twinkle in the twilight
For twilight never dies.

You are the breeze that blows so softly
You are the singing bird that rhymes
And the reason for all goodness
Born to me sweet child of mine.

And when you tell me
That you love me
And I tell you back the same
I feel the beauty that's within you
I cry sweet beauty of your name.

Maurice Ferris
Used With Permission

MOTHER

M- My child our Love is forever
O- Our reunion will be so sweet
T- Together again in the future
H- Holding to hope until we meet
E- Everlasting Life is the plan
R- Reunited with each other again

A Mothers Love is Forever

S- Sorrow takes my breath away
O- Only to hold onto Hope of Heaven
N- Never to be without you again

A Son's Love is Forever

What would I be?
If not a mother, what would I be?
If not a mother, how could i see?
If not a mother, who shared a heart,
An empty soul, with no where to start.
If not a mother, how could I know,
the depth of Love that penetrates me so!
If not a mother, what would I be?
An empty soul unable to breathe?
In memory of my son, Killian, written by Mommy

on August 20, 2006, my mom, Pat, fondly called Mommaw by 7 of her grankids, went to be with Jesus, I have chosen to share Killians memorial site with her. Thank you to everyone 4 the wonderful tributes to her, she loved Hummingbirds...I appreciate it so very much! ((Luv Keena))

In Memory of my mom, Killian's Mammaw xxo

so lovely, Thank you Margaret!

Thank you to all Angel families for making my Killian, BabyH's & my Moms site so beautiful and special to me, I luv You All,

Keena